JayEx23 Beast Blog

Ok It’s been a long time since I wrote a blog but I need a little break from the video I’m editing and I’ve got alot of things I wanted to talk about. I find it a little therapeutic to just type out my thoughts sometimes. Especially when it’s late and night and hard to sleep!

Anyway the first thing I wanted to talk about is Youtube related and a trend I have noticed recently. I’m not going to name channels as that’s not my style and I’m not trying to belittle or slate any Youtubers who may be guilty of what I am explaining. Some of whom are some of my favourite personalities.

There seems to be a number of older or bigger Youtube channels and personalities out there becoming increasingly frustrated with either their views or that their channel isn’t growing as much as they would like. I can understand this, I have these same worries at times and as a partnered channel who doesn’t want what they create to be successful?

The first thing I notice and which I have been guilty of also in the past is practically “complaining” to your audience about either of these for X or Y reason. This is counter productive in a few ways. Firstly 99% of your audience is probably going to be fellow content creator or just people in general who would jump at the chance to have a partnered or even sizeable Youtube channel with thousands of viewers. This means alot of them aren’t going to sympathise and why should they? Sure you will get some fans who will sympathise because they like you as a person and want to see you do well but no one has a right to success based on past successes. It’s easy once you become a “bigger channel” say 50k+ to not think of your current channel size as big or popular because you can see they guy above you. the guy with double your channel size and views, and you want to be that guy. It’s human nature to strive to improve.

For me personally I managed to shed this negative attitude when I had to start over. It’s easy to get caught up in a negative mind set when things aren’t going as well as they could. But if things were always relatively easy it would be difficult to produce the drive needed to better your content and self. Also positivity is infectious. Act negatively and people will respond negatively. Even if you’re at your lowest low people are drawn to confidence, and a positive attitude and if anything will respect you more for it if they know you are having a tough time. There’s lots of saying for this such as “If you want to make an omlette you have to break a few eggs.” “you got to get up to get down” lol. Being able to channel negative emotions into a positive action I’ve found is such a key to being successful in all aspect in life. And once you can do this you will find yourself embracing the hard times instead of wallowing in them (which is very easy to do, I’ve been there).

Anyway enough with the philosophical ramblings for now.

Along with this trend I notice channels relying on past success and expecting people to watch them just because of who they are or what they have done.

This is great and there are some Youtubers out there who do have a huge following of viewers who will watch practically anything they produce and support them through it. This is normally achieved by the viewers sympathizing with the Youtuber. Sometimes it’s carefully crafted by the Youtuber to get the audience to feel this way. And other times it’s just through stellar work and a genuine like of the personality. Although worryingly it seems to be increasingly the first option.

My experiences on Youtube have lead me to the mind set that I want to try and earn my views and credibility with every video. Sure I will do a random vlog or things just for fun on my JXPlays or Vlog channel but when it cmes to my main channel I want people to watch each video and thing “that’s why I’m subscribed, that was entertaining”. I normally judge this by watching my content myself before I uploading and saying to myself “would I enjoy this video?” I only EVER upload if the answer is yes. Don’t get me wrong some channels can be moderately successful with flash in the pan ideas which are basically get rich quick schemes and on a rare occasion this can be turned into lasting success. But for the most part it’s a 1 way path to short term views and a downhill slide.

I don’t write this to say how great I am or incredible all my content is. If anything I’m of the opinion that my content can always improve and recognise there is some great channels out there that I am competing with. I don’t think my outlook is a gaurenteed recipe for big channel growth or huge Youtube success but it’s the approach I take as it means I can think of myself credibly as a content creator. Personally I would like to ride this Youtube train as long as possible but I would much rather look back at my time spent as a portfolio of credible content, then someone who has carefully marketed, promoted and their channel for maximum profit no matter what the price.

I have more to say about my new place but I’ll save that for the next blog! check you guys soon.

I feel a tmblr post coming on!

Anyway there has been quite a few things I wanted to talk about on this blog and I can’t remember them all. I know 1 was about the quality of Youtube videos and some peoples distored views that the way to get big is to do it on “the coat tails” of others. If you don’t know what that means ask your mum, she might explain trololololol.

Anywhoooo what do you think of this banging tune? Was in “The Return” MW2 montage. OMG how sexy was that montage. Makes me cry a lil inside to think it’s gone now. I still have it but there’s no point in uploading it now as it was relevant for it’s time and place but now it would be random.

Anyway onto that topic of becoming “successful” on Youtube through shoutout and explosure of other big channels. And by the way what I consider success seems to be very different to how a large section of the Youtube crowd measure success but that’s a whole other Blog topic.

When it comes down to it you can have all the shout outs and big name friends in the world but if you don#t have the content it doesn’t mean anything. Any sizeable Youtube will know dead subs is a horrible disease and you will surcome to it VERY easily if you see the way of growing your channel as purely by getting exposure. For example it’s like being good looking. If you’re good looking you’ll get laid but no one will actually care about you, love you and want to be there for you if you don’t have the personality to back it up.

Although it is difficult to get your content out their if you are a smaller or new channel remember you are a BAZILLION (yes literally a bazillion) times more likely for those people who watch your videos to want to share them with their friends and elp you become more popular if you have content which is of a high quality, or just down right entertaining. That’s what it’s all about, entertainment. Youtubers are in the business of entertaining. Wether that be funny skits, playthroughs, detailed commentaries, funny stories or just good times. Make sure you ENTERTAIN people and they will come back for more.

What I’m basically saying is if you are a content creator don’t think to yourself “damn if only I had a few shoutouts and help from bigger channels then I will get where I want to be”. Because 99 times out of 100 even if you got those shoutout and that exposure it’s no gaurentee that your popularity will last or that you will know what to do with the attention when you get it.

There is more but I’ll save that for another post!

Beast OUT!!!!

So it’s the end of the year and time to take a look back at the last 12 months and reflect.

It has to have been one of the strangest 12 months of my life for sure. The main event being leaving my employment to work full time on Youtube videos. It was a very difficult and well caculated decision but it felt like the right thing to do at the time.

To be honest the main reason I left my job is because how stressed and frustrated it was making me feel. I know not everyone has the luxury of a job that they enjoy going to everyday but there were alot of things about my work that were really getting to me and the fact that I started making more money through Youtube then in my regular job sealed the deal for me.

At the time I was suffering from anxiety, insomnia, high blood pressure and although not all completely related to my job it was playing a major role. I started to feel very claustrophobic at my job. When I first took the role it seemed like anything but a dead end job but over the years the picture slowly changed. I was quite insulted when a few times I had been overlooked for promotions in favour of less experienced colleauges and began to lose faith that the management had any faith in me. This made motivation even harder and I suppose it was kind of a downward spiral. Ive always had faith in myself, my intelligence and my ability to do a good job. The role I had been given due to a company shift around was also very dull and not what I originally joined for and was very “data input” like. This combined with not being given enough responsibility or challenging work were all effecting my decision to decide to move on.

As I’m sure alot fo you know I’ve had my issues and what I’ve had to go through I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Luckily I’m a strong enough charachter to get through such times and am thankful for that. I’ve learned to have faith in myself and all that matters is that you are true to yourself. Thankfully I’m ending the year on a high and my channel has been one of the fastest growing gaming channels on Youtube in the last 2 months outside of the major channels with 300k+ subscribers. I still enjoy and will continue to work on my Youtube channel but I am however looking into other avenues that I can go down for the long term future. I’m very pleased with my view counts and videos in the last couple of months. However in this line of work you have to do a month by month review of where you are and where you are going. Ideally I would love to do more Let’s Play videos and might give that a go. However, that is very time consuming and if I’m unable to get the views I might have to give up that idea before it starts. I think I just need to start the new year with a positive and focussed attitude and thing will go my way. Fortune favours the brave.

If I could ideally draw out my year in advance I would like to meet a nice girl this year but I’ve had such a “colourful” past with women that I’m in no rush to jump into the wrong relationship. It nearly happened this year when I met a girl I was really into around March and as I know my type it’s not that often that I find a girl who ticks all my boxes. Unfortunately she had some unresolved issues with I think lead to us being unable to really give it a good go which was a real shame but we had alot of fun dating so it was good to have had that at least.

Hello there Blogger world.

Thanks to the people who followed the blog, nice to know a few people who would be interested in my writings. And liek i said in my previous post this is more of a chance for me to discuss topics and get things off my chest in general without the restrictions of Twitter. I would talk about some of these things in my videos but it’s not always the right time.

Anyway Christmas has been and gone and it was a positive affair if not a little sour towards the end! Everyone seemed to enjoy the presents I got them and I’m known for buying good presents so I have a high standard to keep. I recieved some money from the rents to help towards some new tyres on the RX8 and my other relations got me some after shave, Hangover 2 on Blu-Ray and some comfy black tracksuit bottoms which are my fave present of the lot and can’t stop wearing them lol. I did get a dodgy hoody from my mum and I have to say every year I have told her not to buy me any clothes since I was about 12 years old lol. I’m grateful but she truely does have the worst taste in mens clothes. I mean the hoody she bought me is purple with some blue writing on and a weird picture that doesnt suit the style at all. I think I would actually find it difficult to go out and find a more horrible looking hoody if I spent all day looking. But anyway of course I said it was great as I have been honest and told her in the past when I don’t like certain clothes and this year I thought just let her think it’s good she’ll never learn and is bound to buy you something just as ugly next year no matter how much you tell her not to lol.

Anyway my Pops bought me a Spurs shirt which is pretty beast as I haven’t had a new one since I was about 16 years old. I have defo put a bit of weight back on over xmas but it doesn’t really bother me as I know the P90X will sort me out! Also I fixed my camera. I just needed to take the SD card out, give it a clean and put it back in. So there should be some more vlogs soon and maybe a cooking video!

In terms of Youtube it’s an interesting time for me. My MW3 videos have been doing really well, especially with the ones I did in the first week. I now have my first 100k+ view video on my new channel which is a nice milestone and I should soon hit 50k subs. Only issue I’m having really is hwere I see the channel going forward. Ideally I could introduce alot more let’s plays as it’s alot more reliable source of videos if you can make them popular although creatively it’s a bit dead. However, I’m sure I will figure out what to do. When I watch back some of my content and compare it to other channels around with alot higher views I think my content is pretty good and deserves to and should continue to grow.

Anyway I think that will do for now! Catch you in the next Blog :)

Hey guys,

I wanted somewhere to post my thoughts and just to update everyone on things going on with me. Twitter is good for quick updates but I don’t like to spam it and sometimes I would like to write more then 140 characters! So I guess this is going to be more of an online journal!

I don’t really know anything about tmblr and I’ll just be using it as a standard blog site so don’t worry I’m not going to start getting all artsy, re-blogging other stuff and putting contrast effects on pics instagram style.

So what’s going on with me right now? Well it’s Xmas Eve at the time I write this and weirdly I have all my presents bought, wrapped and I’m just waiting for the partying to start! I don’t plan on going out anywhere but I’m looking forward to all the family being together. There aren’t many kids in our family so it’s good for my niece and nephew who get spoiled by me, my sister and all the grandparents!

I am currently trying to work out the best way to deal with my horrible sleeping pattern that I have developed which changed from day to day. Sometimes I’m up all night then asleep all day, then I’m in bed early and up early. Maybe I need more of a schedule or I might consider reading a few books on getting to sleep. Which, ironically will probably send me to sleep.

I’m still on the P90X but it’s a toned down version for the Christmas period. I really enjoy the workouts so can see myself doing them for a long time. Doing the diet is the hardest part mainly due to having the food I can eat in the house. I do actually quite enjoy eating healthy food and only occasionaly eat something more indulgent. Most of the time when I eat fast/fatty food it’s due to convinience more then craving.

Anyway that will do for now but I can see myself using this alot more in the future as it’s good to get your thoughts out of your head sometimes!!